Thursday, February 28, 2008

Mommy & Kennedy


Wow! Words cannot express how I felt when meeting my daughter for the very first time. As we exited the airport in Guatemala City, I searched the crowds for our ride. (There were at least 200 people lined up watching everyone as they came out of the airport for no other reason then just to catch a glimpse of an American or another foreign traveler.) As we reached the end of the red carpet-like line, I noticed one sign that read “Geene Louis”. Perhaps that is me. I positioned my grandmother out of the way with our luggage and made my way to the Guatemalan gentleman holding the sign. I searched the depths of my mind to find an memory of the two intensive Spanish courses from my college days. (Forgive me for all of the misspelled Spanish words you are about to read…..) “Hola. Me llamo Jennie Lewis. Para mi and mi abuelia?” “Si, si,” he replied.

We waited for him to bring the car around and load up our luggage. I still wasn’t convinced we were with the right person. Then he said something about stopping at the San Carlos Hotel first. I told him I didn’t know anything about that. Yikes, we are in the wrong car! He pulled out his cell phone and made a call. I couldn’t understand what he was saying, but I knew he was getting confirmation about the San Carlos Hotel. He got off the phone, and the words he uttered made me feel like there were butterflies in my stomach, “We go to San Carlos Hotel first to get baby.” “How far away is that?” I asked. “Cinco minutos,” he replied. I looked at Mamma like a deer caught in the head lights. She sat there in the back seat with me, un-phased by everything. “Mamma, did you hear that?” “What?” she asked. We are picking up Kennedy first and we will be there in 5 minutes!” I exclaimed. We scrambled to get out our cameras and prepare for the BIG meeting.

We pulled into the parking lot of a beautiful boutique hotel. I walked quickly inside scanning the area for Kennedy. No one there had a baby. I found someone who spoke English and explained the situation. She told us to wait in the front room right by the hotel entrance. After a few minutes my attorney Paco and his wife Sylvia walked into the room. I noticed, there was no baby with them. My expression must have said it all. His wife, who was more fluent in English, told me Kennedy would be here in a few minutes. I hugged and kissed both of them and thanked them for arranging this for us. They sat down beside me and handed me a folder with adoption paper work inside. He went over a few things with me, but I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to pay any attention. Sylvia showed me a typed letter on legal size paper and in purple font describing Kennedy’s eating and sleeping schedule. At the very end of the letter is stated, “She is very sweet girl. LOVE HER VERY MUCH!”

Moments later they saw the foster mother pull into the parking lot. They went out to greet her and I jumped up and showed Mamma how to use the camera. As I turned around, there she was. My heart stopped. I immediately started to tear up. I walked over to her and reached for. She was placed in my arms and the tears began to roll down my face. Sylvia pointed out the little pink outfit she was wearing and the shoes she had on. They were items I had sent down for her. It was Valentine’s Day, and her shirt said LOVE. I started talking to her and in moments I had her smiling. What a relief….she is not terrified of me.

I just kept crying. “Thank you, thank you, thank you” is all I could say to the foster mother. She was moved by my emotion and also started to cry. I hugged her and Paco and Sylvia through the tears and just kept saying, “Thank you so much.” We took some quick photos and then left for Antigua where we would be staying for the next four days. There are no car seats, so I sat in the back and held Kennedy. I left Mamma hold her a little bit as I snapped some photos. I then took Kennedy back into my arms. The drive made her fall to sleep and I held her close to my chest with her head resting on my shoulder.

We arrived at the Villa de Antona boutique hotel and were greeted by the hotel staff. As we made our way into the lobby to check in, Kennedy was taken from me by a hotel staff person with a big smile and I would soon find out…a bigger heart. Her name was Veronica. I was a little annoyed because I wasn’t done holding her yet! After we checked in, they took us on a quick tour of the facility. We walked into the open court yard and there is where I met up with Kennedy again. There is also where we met Gary and Ellora, a couple adopting three babies! They invited us to join them for dinner and that is where our friendship began and also where Kennedy’s first professional photo shoot was held.

The days to follow were amazing. I loved Kennedy from first seeing her photos. I didn’t know she would make me fall head over heels. My heart has been filled with so much love, it is indescribable. One day it just hit me. As Mamma and I were sitting outside and she was holding Kennedy, I just started to cry. This was all part of God’s plan from the very beginning. In the six years we were trying to get pregnant, through all the tears that were shed, and all the prayers that were said, God had this amazing plan. They say a thousand things have to go just right in order to conceive…..with adoption, I think the number would be in the billions.

You will have to wait until I have enough courage to write about our last day in Antigua with Kennedy. Give me a few days, and I will plan on posting it over the weekend.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Hola! Greetings from Guatemala.

Our new friends Gary and Ellora have been wonderful and extremely helpful. They are adopting 3 beautiful babies. Gary is a professional photographer and took some amazing photos of Kennedy. He set up this special website for Kennedy's photo gallery. You can view all the photos from the link below and have them printed or order some if you like.I was in love with Kennedy from only seeing her picture, holding her and being with her has made me fall head over heels! I miss her already and I am watching her as I type. We will be home soon and hopefully back to pick up Kennedy forever in a few short months.

Our love to everybody!Jennie, Mamma, and Kennedy Marguerite

link: http://eandg.smugmug.com/gallery/4350513_cWwVk#255285908

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Guatemala or Bust?

Well... so far Bust! Jennie and Mama are stuck in North Carolina for the evening. Bad weather in PA delayed thier flight at HIA and as a result they missed thier connector in Charolette. Jennie had a small meltdown when she learned about the missed flight but is doing better now. Fortunately, Mama was abe to save the day and get them an upgrade to FIRST CLASS on tomarrow's flight!! They will be arriving in Guatemala around 2:00 pm Thursday and have extended their stay an extra day.

Now for the good news, Paco got us back into PGN yesterday! Hopefully, we will be making another trip to Guatemala very soon to bring our little girl home.

~Briton

P.S. Did you really think Jennie could go 5 days without updating the blog? ~B

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Hey, Heidi........Pictures!

This post is dedicated to my cousin, Heidi. She checks the blog every morning and tonight she told me it was time for an update. When I got home I checked my email and received photos of Kennedy. Perfect timing!


Wow, she looks so big! To my knowledge the most recent pictures (more at bottom of page) were taken around January 12, 2008. That was the date of Kennedy's last medical check up. Kennedy was a little over 3 months old at the time and she weighed in at a whopping 9 lbs.


Now for the adoption stuff. We were kicked out of PGN the end of January. Right now we are waiting for a certificate from the newly established Central Authority. Once we get it, we can get back into PGN. Please pray that it happens soon! I am optismitc that we can be back into PGN by February 18, 2008. Which would mean if all goes smoothly we could be out for good by March 30, 2008 and be picking up Kennedy by April 30, 2008. This is of course me "dreaming through rosey colored glasses"!


Now back to Heidi. We have a unique situation in our family. I am adopting and Heidi is pregnant (we are both first time Mommies). It has been so much fun for me. I get to experience the miracle of both adoption and pregnancy at the same time. Heidi gets ultrasound pictures and I get emailed pictures. The experience is so different, but yet so similar. I know this was part of God's plan. Heidi is also having a baby girl, Olivia. Our daughters will be in the same grade and go to the same school and ultimately share a special bond. Undoubtedly, our daughters will bring us and our family even closer together. The Kerstetter's haven't had a baby in the family since my brother.....and he is 24! What an amazing year 2008 will be!


Of course the wait is still difficult. I leave for Guatemala in 6 days. I feel like I did when getting married......excited and terrified at the same time! The wait is still tough. I wanted to share this story for you that was forwarded to me by another adopting mom....."Waiting can make our hearts bigger so that we can love deeper. Waiting can give us time to pray for our sweet children who are on the way. God can use the waiting time to mold us into the parents He needs us to be for the children He is sending our way."

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Crib Pictures

The pictures say it all! When Lily couldn't provide poodle powered assistance, Brit called for back up.......his mother-in-law! The assembly took place on Saturday, January 12, 2008. Now we just need crib bedding and a chaning table. The quilt displayed on the crib was handmade for Kennedy as a Christmas Gift from Nana Seigler.











Thursday, January 17, 2008

27 days and counting...

....until I meet Kennedy for the very first time!

My friends tell me that my entries have been real "tear jerkers" lately, so I will keep this one up beat and light hearted.

Mamma (pronounced Mam-maw, my grandmother) booked our flight today for Guatemala. Unfortunately we will not be staying in Guatemala City where the other adoptive mothers will be. We will be in Antigua which is 45 minutes away, but beautiful! I am disappointed I will not be able to meet them on this trip, but am looking forward to the "Mommy & Me Time" I will be spending with Kennedy. More good news...we extended our trip an extra day! We will now be flying back on 2/17/08 giving us an extra day with Kennedy! Brit and I are going shopping tomorrow to pick up items for Kennedy. She will have a suitcase all to herself!

I'll try to post pictures this weekend of Brit assembling the crib. I didn't think it was possible to love him any more. But when I see him doing "Daddy Work", I fall for him all over again. I just know the first time I see him holding Kennedy it will melt my heart.

All for now. I need to go brush up on my Spanish. Hasta luego!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

I'm leaving on a jet plane...

Last night, upon posting an email on the adoption list serve I subscribe to, I received a very special email reply. Within moments upon reading its contents, it would change everything. "What is Brit going to think? How do I bring it up?" These thoughts were racing through my mind when at 11:10 p.m. Brit phoned to say he was on his way home from work. I was watching my Sex and The City DVDs, but my mind was somewhere else. I told him to drive safely and hurry home.

Around midnight Brit walked through the door. He immediately noticed how happy I was. "Did we get new pictures of Kennedy?", he asked inquisitively. "NO," I smugly replied. "Then what's up?" he questioned. "Oh, nothing. I just got this invitation to fly down to Guatemala in February with some of the other adopting mothers."

At first, Brit's reaction made me cry...and not in a good way. As I tried to explain the details, he claimed to be concerned about the additional expense. He wasn't jumping up and down with joy like I had hoped. I got quiet, stopped talking, and started crying as he sat across the room and looked at me, and then the floor, then at me, and then the floor. "Are you upset?" he asked. "Well, I wasn't upset until you came home," I too honestly replied with half a smile. "I'm worried about you," he continued. "Are you going to be able to come home without her?" There it was...the BIG question. The only reason why I wasn't already down to visit Kennedy. Can I handle the good-bye? And for the first time, as I looked up at Brit, I knew I could. I knew with the support of the other mothers accompanying me and the support of Brit and my entire family, I could handle it. It wasn't going to be easy, but I could do it.

Round one went to Brit, but I wasn't going down without a fight. I decided it was time to start round two. "I can do it," I stated with confidence. I went on to explain the other benefits of the visit trip. "Kennedy needs to meet me. It will make her transition into our family easier for her. And the other mother tells me how much better it will be for me to know the ropes before going down for our pick up. We will both be able to enjoy the pick up trip together because I will already be familiar with the surroundings." I went on and on and on. Poor guy, he didn't stand a chance. "Is the real reason you are upset is because you won't be with me?" Before he replied, I already knew the answer. Within the next few minutes, I won him over. He leaned down to give me a kiss and said, "Okay, you can go." "That's great," I replied, "but I wasn't asking for your permission." "I know," he said while shaking his head in agreement, "but if I really didn't want you to go, you wouldn't. You will come back, won't you?" I replied the only way I knew how...with the shrug of my shoulders.

I was very excited, but something was missing. I knew what it was. The other women were taking their mothers along. I am a first time Mommy. I can read all the books in the world about parenting, but nothing can compare to having my Mamma (pronounced Mam-maw, my grandmother) with me. Mamma would be hard to persuade. My mom may have been easier, but she was going to on an annual trip to Florida. I would have to win Mamma over...and soon. That brings us to today.

Cub Scout Pack 161 held their annual Pine Wood Derby contest. I talked Brit and Mom into being judges. I talked Mamma into coming along too. We all went together. After it was over we were going to breakfast, but first, my Mom wanted to make a quick stop at the butcher shop. While she went inside, the rest of us waited in the car. "Mamma, its been a while since you have been on a trip hasn't it?" "Yep," she replied, "it's time to go somewhere." "Well, in that case, how would you like to go with me to see Kennedy in February?" How could she say no?

We are in the process of making travel plans for 2/13-2/16. I will miss Valentine's Day with my husband, but will be spending it with my daughter. Words cannot express the sheer joy that I am feeling.